confessions of a DRAMA QUEEN

"Ever the Same" - Rob Thomas
We were drawn from the weeds
We were brave like soldiers
Falling down under the pale moonlight
You were holding to me
Like a someone broken
And I couldn't tell you but I'm telling you now

Just let me hold you while you're falling apart
Just let me hold you and we'll both fall down

Fall on me
Tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you forever in me
Ever the same

We would stand in the wind
We were free like water
Flowing down
Under the warmth of the sun
Now it's cold and we're scared
And we've both been shaken
Hey, look at us
Man, this doesn't need to be the end

Just let me hold you while you're falling apart
Just let me hold you and we'll both fall down

Fall on me tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same
Call on me
I'll be there for you and you'll be there for me
Forever it's you
Forever in me
Ever the same

You may need me there
To carry all your weight
But you're no burden I assure
You tide me over
With a warmth I'll not forget
But I can only give you love

Fall on me tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same
Call on me
I'll be there for you and you'll be there for me
Forever it's you
Forever in me
Ever the same

Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same(Ever the same)

I find myself again with so few entries to show for how much I have to say. I keep saying I'll write more, I'll read more, I'll be there, but I'm not. I guess that means I'm less dependent on what my LJ once offered. For once in my life, I'm... for lack of a better word, popular. People want to be around me, instead of the other way around. That feeling is.. crazy, because I always felt that I would never be like that. I was the quiet, shy girl, who always clinged to others for some form of recognition. Now I'm the one being clung to, and it's a little.. crazy.
I recently played a game of "I Never" and it seems like I haven't really done anything with my life. Like.. I haven't had the same experiences that everyone has. I have far too many regrets, and I don't want to be like that. I'm happy, but ... I'm not happy? I don't know what I am. I'm better than I was before. I know that. But I still want something more. I want love. I want to love and to be loved. That always seems like a prevalent theme in my life. The question my relatives always seem to ask is "Any boyfriends yet?", and now even my parents are wondering. They say because they want me to experience life, but I think it's because they're worried I'm going to end up alone. Or that I'm gay. Which would probably be the end of them. But that's another subject.
I could just go drown my sorrows in alcohol.. I can buy it for myself now. But that won't solve anything, I'll just probably be left with a hangover.
People all around me seem to be finding love, getting married, getting engaged. I'm sure my chance will come... but I'm getting a little impatient.

I haven't been a very good friend to all my online buddies. So, if you can, drop me a comment and let me know what's going on in your life. I may not write a lot, but I try to be around.
Just ignore my pathetic ramblings. Just means I'm a little frustrated, and those frustrations would be better suited for writing smutty fanfiction, hehe.
Until we meet again,
Tahiti